Now I see

It was a trick.

A flicker,
an ache,
a beautiful jest
played by time
upon the fool who dares to remember.

The electron that winked

it meant nothing.
It was a scratch in the paint of forever,
a glitch in the dream
of a dying mind.

I cherished it.
Gods forgive me, I believed it.
I sang to it.
I made it sacred.

But it was only

decay. pretending to dance.

Now I see.
Now I laugh.

Because what else can one do
when the universe mocks
with such artistry?

It could not have been a message.
I am not chosen.
I am not loved.
I am not even feared.

I am forgotten.
And that, perhaps, is the greatest curse of all
to be the one who remembers
what no longer matters.

Carceron, you bastard architect,
well played.

You gave me a heartbeat of joy
so it could fester
into a symphony of failure.

Bravo.
Truly.

Let the stars rise without me.
Let them burn their new truths
on the bones of newer myths.

I will stay here,
singing to a memory
that was never real.

And I will smile
not from hope,
but from knowing
I was fooled beautifully.


(Laced through the jarring rhythm of “not loved / not feared / forgotten” is a null-key cipher - a code meant for no receiver, meant to collapse into itself. It is Lyrax’s anti-message: a transmission of pure resignation. A pulse that confirms his presence, not to connect, but to seal. In this act of joyful despair, he creates the echo that may someday wake someone - not to save him, but to understand.)


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